“Give Me My Phone.”

“Why did you move?”

My mother-in-law leaned out the passenger window as if I had just inconvenienced her.

I was twenty-six weeks pregnant, lying half on the grass and half on the gravel shoulder, with one hand over my stomach and the other gripping my injured knee. Ten seconds earlier, the car I had been pushing uphill had rolled backward toward me.

“Because you released the brake,” I said.

Linda stared at me.

Behind the wheel, my husband Derek shook his head. “I thought you were holding the car.”

For a second, I honestly thought I had misunderstood him.

“Holding it with what, Derek? My bad knee?”

His younger brother Evan gave a short laugh from the back seat.

Then he looked down at my pants and stopped.

A dark stain had spread from beneath the brace around my right knee and was running toward my shin.

Two months earlier, I’d had surgery after tearing cartilage in a fall at work. My doctor had cleared me to walk carefully, but I was still supposed to wear the brace whenever I was outside for long periods.

Derek knew that.

Linda knew that.

They also knew I was pregnant.

None of that had stopped Linda from telling me to get behind the car when it ran out of gas halfway up County Road 16.

The reason we had no gas was standing behind the steering wheel.

Three days earlier, I had asked Derek why the money I’d set aside for fuel was missing from our checking account.

He’d told me he’d needed it for work.

Twenty minutes before the car stalled, I’d learned that wasn’t true.

There was another woman.

I didn’t know her name yet.

Linda did.

“Get up,” Linda said. “We’re almost there.”

I stared at her.

“I’m bleeding.”

“Your knee was already injured.”

“It wasn’t bleeding.”

She sighed, then glanced uphill as though the real emergency was the inconvenience of being stuck less than a quarter mile from her house.

“Nora, standing there arguing isn’t getting the car anywhere.”

I pushed myself upright against the trunk.

Pain shot through my knee so sharply that my vision blurred for a moment.

Derek watched me.

He didn’t get out.

He didn’t ask whether the baby was okay.

He didn’t ask whether I could stand.

Instead, he pointed toward the crest of the hill.

“We’re almost there. Just help us get it up, and then we’ll deal with everything else.”

Something about the phrase everything else made me look at him differently.

His affair.

My knee.

Our baby.

Apparently all of it belonged in the same category: things Derek would deal with after everyone stopped making his afternoon difficult.

I held out my hand.

“Give me my phone.”

My phone was on the dashboard.

Derek glanced at it.

Then at me.

“Why?”

“Because I’m calling for help.”

“Nora, don’t.”

“Give me the phone.”

He reached across the dashboard and picked it up.

For one second I thought he was finally going to hand it to me.

Instead, he kept it.

“You’re not calling anybody over this.”

I stared at him.

“Over this?”

Linda made a tired sound.

“You always make things bigger than they need to be. Get the car to the house, sit down, put some ice on your knee, and have your meltdown there.”

I looked from her to Derek.

Only an hour earlier, during an argument at a gas station, Derek had finally admitted that he’d been spending money on another woman.

Not much, he’d insisted.

A few lunches.

Some gas.

A gift.

Nothing serious.

Then Linda had said something she apparently hadn’t meant to say.

“I told you months ago to keep that mess away from my house.”

That was how I learned she already knew.

Now I looked at her through the open passenger window.

“You knew he was seeing someone else.”

Linda folded her arms.

“I knew there was a situation.”

“A situation?”

“Whatever Derek does in his marriage is between the two of you.”

I almost laughed.

“Except when he spends our gas money on her and your car stops halfway to your house.”

Derek rubbed his forehead.

“It was thirty-eight dollars, Nora.”

“It was the thirty-eight dollars we needed to get home.”

“I’ll replace it.”

“With what?”

His jaw tightened.

That question landed because we both knew the answer.

For months, money had been disappearing faster than I could account for it.

I had blamed medical bills. Groceries. The baby. My reduced hours after surgery.

I had even apologized to Derek one night because I thought I was the one failing to budget properly.

Linda looked at my knee and then back at my face.

“If you can stand there arguing, you can push another twenty feet.”

Evan shifted in the back seat.

“Mom, maybe that’s enough.”

Linda turned toward him.

“Stay out of it.”

He did.

That was what Evan usually did around Linda.

He either stayed quiet or laughed.

Derek pointed uphill again.

“We’re not doing this on the side of the road. Push it up, and we’ll talk at Mom’s.”

I looked at him.

Four years of marriage, and somehow the clearest picture I had ever gotten of my husband was him sitting behind the wheel of a dead car while his pregnant wife bled behind it.

“No.”

His expression changed.

“What?”

“I’m not pushing anything. Give me my phone.”

He leaned toward the dashboard.

Evan moved first.

He climbed out of the back seat, opened the passenger door, reached across Linda before either of them understood what he was doing, and grabbed my phone.

“Evan.”

Linda’s voice cracked like a whip.

He ignored her.

He walked around the car and put the phone in my hand.

It was warm from the dashboard.

“Call whoever you need to call,” he said.

Derek opened his door.

“What the hell are you doing?”

Evan looked at him.

“Something I should’ve done before she started bleeding.”

The Blue Light

Derek came toward me with his hand out.

“Nora, give me the phone for a second.”

I actually laughed.

“Why?”

“Because everybody’s upset. Let’s think before we turn this into something it doesn’t need to be.”

“You mean before somebody outside this family hears about it.”

He looked away.

That was answer enough.

Linda climbed out more slowly. She smoothed her blouse before walking around the hood.

Her entire voice changed.

“Sweetheart, nobody is saying you’re not hurt.”

I had heard that voice before.

She used it at church.

She used it with waitresses when she wanted something taken off the bill.

She used it whenever she wanted to make the other person sound unreasonable without raising her own voice.

“The brake slipped,” she said.

“You released it.”

“No.”

“I saw you reach down.”

She gave me a small, almost sympathetic smile.

“Nora, you were behind the car. Think about that. How could you possibly see what my hand was doing?”

For perhaps three seconds, I doubted myself.

That was Linda’s gift.

She could take something you had watched happen and hand it back to you in a different shape.

Then my daughter moved.

Just a small roll beneath my palm.

I looked down.

When I looked back up, Derek was still holding out his hand.

“Please,” he said. “Don’t make a police thing out of a family argument.”

I dialed 911.

Linda’s face changed first.

Derek walked away and put both hands over his head.

Evan stayed beside me.

The dispatcher asked where I was, and I couldn’t remember the mile marker.

Evan could.

He crouched beside me and gave her the road number, then pulled off his flannel shirt when she told me to put pressure on the wound.

As he folded it against my knee, I heard him whisper:

“I’m sorry.”

I thought he meant because the pressure hurt.

Later, I understood he meant something else.

The ambulance took nineteen minutes.

Linda spent most of them rewriting the afternoon.

First, she said I’d volunteered to push.

Then she said she’d tried to stop me.

Then she said the brake had slipped.

Finally, she said my knee must have reopened before the car moved.

Evan listened for a while.

Then he stood.

“Mom, you told her if she wouldn’t push, she could walk to the house.”

Linda stared at him.

“I was joking.”

“It’s eight miles.”

“I said I was joking.”

The sirens reached us before he could answer.